3 good things

1. Work was pretty chill. Designed everything pretty quickly with very little edits which was nice. Mastery over the brand is coming soon I guess.

2. Got to see Ces and Eli to go wheatpaste another Huf tribute as seen above. It’s nice to be able to just throw these up. It was interesting when we went because my friend lit 3 of the candles that was there. It was very reminiscent/ almost comforting because of how many deaths that I’ve experienced. I haven’t thought about death lately. Maybe that’s a good thing. I have been thinking a lot about how I can’t sleep and also how I just spend so much money now. But it like doesn’t matter since I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing which is investing every week. More and more, I just want to be doing more skrrt things.

3. I went running today. My knee didn’t hurt that much so that was a good sign. I’m starting to work out a little bit harder with weights just because I need to keep my body strong if I want to skate

A lot of things are going on right now. While my 9-5 is ok, I still want to be doing something else. I need to sleep though

3 good things

1. The skrrt wheatpaste that I made of Keith Hufnagel got featured on a post on the Huf Worldwide page. It doesn’t do much, but I’m happy that my collage work got recognized. It’s nice to know that luck = preparation + opportunity. Right now I’m in the preparation mode. I restarted a different instagram page to track my progress. I could go back to my own personal instagram, but I don’t feel like it. I also could just throw everything on behance like so: https://www.behance.net/gallery/92778285/30-Days30-Teams30-Posters-Soccer-Posters I think at the end of 30 days of this, I’ll do something like this. It adds to my portfolio to show that I’m interested in shoes and skateboarding.

2. I got a pair of pants on ebay for $15. Originally they were $20. I gave an offer of $15. The guy accepted. P happy because I tried to buy pants that weren’t the right fit. It’s wild how for the last 10-13 years I’ve been wearing slim straight jeans and now all I want are just baggy, flowy jeans. It makes my life so much easier. I still have to care about fit, but the nice thing is that I can just buy jeans that are oversized and just put them on.

3. I tried out some new wheatpaste. It’s a lot thinner and easier to spread which should hopefully be good.

4. Oh, I had a phone call with a guy who wants to do some business with skrrt. Things are going along. I’m kind of becoming a business person and frankly, I’m ok with that.

Tomorrow, I think I’m going to try to run. I tried skating and it was so weird to pop an ollie after a week and a half of not skating. I need to stress my knee a little bit because it feels a bit fragile, but at the same time, I just need to get used to it again.

Despite having to work 5 days a week again, things are starting to pick up for skrrt which is nice. Even the woman who has not texted me back in almost 2 weeks, hit me back up. Now I get to play the waiting game, but also she asked to see my work. I can send her to the HUF page and be like, my work been seen here haha.

3 good things

1. Got Thai Food

2. Didn’t have to workout today

3. Put stickers up around Willyb

Up above is my first attempt working at a layout with sneakers. I forgot that if I want to work at Nike SB or Adidas, I should probably know how to design with shoes. I guess this will be what I will practice for the next few weeks. I think I should try to do what I’ve been doing at Revlon which is a layout and placing shoes next to it.

I’m a bit annoyed because I have to work 5 days a week again. I think that’s what I’m going to be complaining about. I can just feel my stress levels rise. I’m not sure if it’s possible to work less hours unless I get a new gig. It would be very difficult I think. Or would it be. What I’m talking about is just getting a new job and being onboarded remotely. I’m also annoyed that my dog is back to being so needy. As soon as I get her a new toy which dispenses treats by her gnawing on it, she figures out how to get everything out and is bored again. It’s frustrating. I don’t know what other toys to buy.

3 good things..I’mma just write

Did a lot of things today. I woke up, rode my bike, walked Gemma, went to the post office twice, did work, ate food, biked to LES skatepark, and printed/wheatpasted this poster on a wooden board outside. Pretty productive day on a Monday. However, I just found out today that I’m back to 40 hour weeks. Goodbye to the 3 day weekend. And goodbye to what I thought was going to be a perfect next few months. Things are starting to return to normal as students are going back to school this week. Even one case of corona will close down a classroom and have everyone in it be quarantined for 2 weeks. I remember when quarantine started and when phase 1 was about to go into effect. I got really scared. I got scared because that meant having to go back to the reality of a 9-5. I went from regular 9-5 to 3 days a week to 4 days a week and now back to 5. I’ve been living just fine and now…I’m faced with the reality of a 9-5. That I’m no different from any other person. I’m not exceptional in the regards of being famous. I remember in one of these blogs that I wrote about how I never wanted to be famous, but still with instagram and the people that I’m starting to surround myself with, I want it now. I just want recognition in skateboarding or as a designer. But I guess I’m the type that has to try for many years before something finally happens. skrrt, the skateboard magazine that I’m running, got a small shop in SOHO to do an interview on us. It’s cool how really just putting yourself out there really does change things. I’m still not on my personal instagram. I’m not ready to put myself out there. It’s nice because I could finally just post myself up all the time and not care.

In other news, the board of wood that the poster is pasted on is actually a board that has been sitting outside my apt for the last month. No one has touched it so finally I said yesterday, I can use that to put it up. I then realized that if I find a piece of wood, I can paste it on it and put it wherever there are skaters. My work is now portable and I can directly target my audience.

Life is changing again and again. I have no other choice but to keep going. It’s wild when you’ve been on this world for almost 30 years. You learn a lot and yet there is so much to learn depending on if you want to have kids. A few days ago I was thinking about how if I wanted to have kids, I need to start settling down now or rather finding someone to partner with. It gives me a bit of anxiety thinking of that. But also, I’ve been ghosted several times in the last few weeks and frankly, I’m not as challenged by it. I think it’s because there’s so much to do in life now especially since I’m trying to get this zine off the ground that there is no time to think about women as much.