3 good things.

1. Talked with my friend Kirby

2. Felt creative today and made 2 things (more on this later)

3. I’m excited that I’m receiving my theracane tomorrow (upper back has been bussin)

Work went by pretty quick today because I got to design. However, I keep falling asleep or napping or taking a certain amount of time to close my eyes and chill. It’s something that you don’t get to do at a normal office unless you work at Linkedin or Google or some big company. Well my company is big, but work life isn’t the best at the office.

Anyways, I decided to create 2 pieces today because for some reason, Sweeny Todd came up in my head and yesterday I was messing around illustrating a swallow using photoshop and wanted to do so with a wolf. I’ve also been really interested in surfing lately and am going surfing on Thursday.

Summer is ending here in NYC. It’s always bittersweet because that means more clothing, more laundry, but also the impending change of corona is to happen in some form. What does that look like? We literally have to wait and see. Some of the only things keeping me sane are my dog and skateboarding.

I went skating for the first time in a pair of ridiculously baggy jeans. I couldn’t see my board on certain tricks which freaked me out. I’ve been skating in slim or skinny jeans for so long that it makes sense for me to be able to see the board. However, I do feel like my steeze has gone up when I land tricks. It’s interesting how much of a child I’ve become again because of pandemic. But what’s cool is that I’m secure and don’t have to worry about so much. The only worry I have right now is that my roommate is coughing a lot. She’s been staying in her room the whole time which is good, but still.

I kind of just felt like journaling right now. I’m feeling a little sick right now, but also because the weather is changing again meaning the seasons are changing again. Last night I went on a date and I kept saying how much I was going to miss summer. I’m coming up on my 3rd year here in NYC and I have to ask myself, am I doing what I need to be doing. Am I doing what I thought I would be doing when I moved here. To be frank, I’m not sure. I remember when I first moved, I wasn’t entirely sure what I wanted to do. I said just graphic design at a nonprofit would be great. As I write this, I remember that my goals change every year.

The main things that happened during my first year

• Got a job at the fresh air fund

• said to myself I wanted to take the year to just explore nyc and enjoy working 3 days out of the week

• I got to skate more

• I started working at HHF

• The credit scam

The biggest impact on me that first year was the credit scam. That forced me to start learning about stocks and money which affected what I wanted in a job and also how I wanted to retire early.

2nd year

• Started work at EP and Co

• Started making zines to practice design

• started using IG as a way to reach people.

• Got my job at revlon

• my aunt’s death made me realize I focused so much on work, I forgot about connections

This past year has been interesting because of covid. Being at revlon reminds me of being at apple. It was really stressful. However, quarantine has allowed me to relax though. When I went on a date with a woman who was really focused on her craft, it reinspired me again to want to start trying again.

However, I have to remind myself, that there is no one path to where I want to go. I want to be an art director or creative director at nike. However, the question becomes, how do I get there and what do I need to do.

I can look up people and see what they did and possibly take a similar route. But I have no work right now. I just have display work. I don’t have my personal projects.

I saw the keith haring contest. Maybe I’ll enter but actually put up work.

We’ll see.

3 good things

1. skated

2. went on a date

3. slept

3 good things

1. Saw my friends in midtown

2. Got to talk to my family (Manang Lani and Jon had their baby’s gender reveal)

3. Fun chatting on the phone with women

I didn’t get to heelflip anything today. My body was so ready to heelflip a 4 stair and ollie the long 8, but we didn’t go. I was a bit sad, but at the same time, I’m happy that I also met a new skater for skrrt. Here’s a clip of him attempting his line, but he messed up and still recovered. I often will ask myself am I doing all that I can. Frankly, I think I’m not doing all that I can. However, this is a different era of time for me. Motion graphics is something that has interested me, but I’m not sure what else I want to do. I think a new camera might be the move to be honest.

Reinvest in yourself.

What are the things you can do to do that?

Classes. Clothing.Equipment.

I just threw a thousand into savings again because I’m a bit hesitant of the stock market.