Monday

I kind of just felt like journaling right now. I’m feeling a little sick right now, but also because the weather is changing again meaning the seasons are changing again. Last night I went on a date and I kept saying how much I was going to miss summer. I’m coming up on my 3rd year here in NYC and I have to ask myself, am I doing what I need to be doing. Am I doing what I thought I would be doing when I moved here. To be frank, I’m not sure. I remember when I first moved, I wasn’t entirely sure what I wanted to do. I said just graphic design at a nonprofit would be great. As I write this, I remember that my goals change every year.

The main things that happened during my first year

• Got a job at the fresh air fund

• said to myself I wanted to take the year to just explore nyc and enjoy working 3 days out of the week

• I got to skate more

• I started working at HHF

• The credit scam

The biggest impact on me that first year was the credit scam. That forced me to start learning about stocks and money which affected what I wanted in a job and also how I wanted to retire early.

2nd year

• Started work at EP and Co

• Started making zines to practice design

• started using IG as a way to reach people.

• Got my job at revlon

• my aunt’s death made me realize I focused so much on work, I forgot about connections

This past year has been interesting because of covid. Being at revlon reminds me of being at apple. It was really stressful. However, quarantine has allowed me to relax though. When I went on a date with a woman who was really focused on her craft, it reinspired me again to want to start trying again.

However, I have to remind myself, that there is no one path to where I want to go. I want to be an art director or creative director at nike. However, the question becomes, how do I get there and what do I need to do.

I can look up people and see what they did and possibly take a similar route. But I have no work right now. I just have display work. I don’t have my personal projects.

I saw the keith haring contest. Maybe I’ll enter but actually put up work.

We’ll see.