3 good things

1. People at work are very understanding about what’s going on with Auntie

2. Feeling motivated again to create

3. There was a lot of work to do today :D

Went back to work and there was a lot to do today. I was pretty happy because there was so much to do. I know that this seems to be the last few weeks here at EP+Co. I’ll miss the comfortable space that is there and also the fact that people were very nice about what’s going on with my Aunt.

I worked on my resume today and wrote a cover letter and applied to a few jobs. I know that the ones I applied to probably won’t get me anywhere, but it would be nice to see what I can get and what I have to tweak. It sucks that it has to be this way, but you know, anger has been a good motivator for me in the past.

It got me to Berkeley. It’s allowed me to create something every day. It reminds me that there’s so much more to work for. It reminds me that I have so much more to live for. Anger is sometimes a good emotion.

Recently, I’ve been saying that my anger is never validated from others. It’s true. So in this sense of using anger as my motivation, I’m finally validating the feelings that I’ve kept inside for so long.

Anger is often grief that has been kept quiet. Anger is this one emotion that is so powerful. However, I do have to be careful with it. Anger can also destroy. But in the mean time, I feel pretty good. I’m going to spend a little bit more time tonight just making whatever.

So I’m back here again and I’m going to try to be consistent with creating one thing per day. Doesn’t matter what it is, but I’m glad that I’m finally creating again. Not to say that I haven’t been creating it’s just that finally I feel like I broke out of the hole. I was back in California this past week to visit my aunt who isn’t doing so well. It was a lot of emotional labor and holding space for family and friends. I knew that it wasn’t going to be a break. However, as I was driving with my Dad back to the airport yesterday, I started getting mad. I remembered what Darren Hardy said once which was get mad. Use anger as a motivator to get you out of the situation that you are in. Frankly, it’s a good idea. In the last week I’ve revamped my portfolio again and made it look more like my style. I’m hoping that I attract the right audience. I’m just happy that I’m finally feeling how I did back in November which was excited. Let’s see where this goes.

3 good things

1. Ran Today

2. Saw an apartment and really liked it

3. Finished up my portfolio and resume

4. Didn’t eat too much

5. Got to spend time with my dog

3 good things

Really fun bike ride to work

Happy to have food

last day at work. Bittersweet, but a bit more stressful than I would have liked it to be. I don’t know why, but I was in a foul mood for some odd reason. I just didn’t want to do anything, but obviously since this was my last day, there was so much to get done. But I think this is a good foreshadowing of the next gig. I’m going to be an intern and I’m expecting that I’m going to be doing a lot. I got 3 months to prove that I’m worth a full time gig. But also, if it doesn’t work out, then that means that I also have 3 months to figure out what I want to do next.

When I first started on this blog, this became a space for me to track my progress when it came to design and a little bit of investing. I’ve kind of forgotten about investing. But at the same time, I’m looking for that 401k/benefits thing so that I can actually start saving for retirement/ start investing in stocks/ putting my money away.

I keep saying that I’m going to reset and do certain things, but idk, I still keep thinking that this design thing is going to go somewhere. I’m still kind of thinking that hopefully I get the Adobe Creative Residency. The chances are very slim. It would be really cool. I just don’t know.

I guess I just leave everything to fate I guess.

I’m really tired after this week. Had a 5 day week and I’m going out again to go film skateboarding and I have a photoshoot at night. I’m really trying.

So I drew this yesterday, I just forgot to post it up. Actually, as I was going to bed and was putting my computer down, I realized I never wrote this down or posted anything.

oh well.