Saturday
3 good things
Did the rainbow rail at Cooper for the first time.
Bought beanies for the embroidery
Made the moodboard and storyboard
So the denim shop has given us full reign on art direction.
It’s hard because in my head I have to also give some creative control to the other filmer even though skrrt is my brand. I’m having issues with possession. I think it’s because I’ve worked really hard on it. Well if I’m going to be frank, I would stay up til 3am working on it to progress my design skills. And what did it do for me. It got me my job at Revlon. It got me to save 14k. It earned me 14k in stocks. Of course I’m going to be possessive over this shit. And I have to be.
We’re still in the early stages and I know it’s fine to experiment, but there’s been a lot of talk in my head and other people’s voices have been creeping in saying skrrt isn’t going to do well. I’ve done a good job of keeping negativity out of my life. I’m not sure why people are trying to fight. It just doesn’t feel right.
I think it’s because I’m starting to feel that people take advantage of me. I have to remember that this blog space is for me just to write how I’m feeling. I’m a bit confused and stressed, but it’s also because I’m overthinking. This is why I don’t like going to LES too much. My friends tell me all these things going on, but frankly, I just don’t want to hear it. I just want to focus on this.
Remember, your dream is to be an art director at Nike SB or Addias skateboarding one day. I’m slowly starting to get there. Remember, your dream is to be an art director at Nike Sb or Adidas skateboarding one day. It’s not to be a filmer even though you like doing it. Remember, that it doesn’t matter if skrrt does well or not. It’s going to get YOU somewhere. Remember, it is about YOU. Your first issue of skrrt was about you.
Why are you doing skrrt? You started it so that you could get better at design. YOU got better at design. YOU got a job. YOU’VE learned a lot at this job. YOU started wheatpasting again. YOU started spending your money on this. THIS IS YOU. SKRRT IS YOU.
Ok, now i’m just gassing myself up a bit. Feels good, but chill haha.
I think what I want now is just that spotlight for myself that the denim shop does. It’ll be nice to have that for me.