Up above is a type of style that I’ve never done before. Combination of chic fashion drawings and stan getz album covers. I was having a conversation with a friend and I just happened to text, “Tea off at noon".”

The cultural reference behind it is tea which is gossip but the larger understanding is that “tee off” means golf.

3 good things

1. I biked over both bridges today for physical therapy. That’s really good! It took me about 2 weeks the first time when I fell on my knee and today is only day 3. I think it was the first day when I just took a break that really made a difference. I also got a my core workout disc. I think I bought the wrong thing, but it still gets the job done haha

2. Designed something new. I’m starting to think about possibly moving towards sports design. Just seems like more fun. Still though, designing for skateboarding would be the sickest thing for me.

3. Food? Idk, just happy with things right now. Playing with Gemma is easier because she has her dispenser ball

I like my new schedule of going to sleep around 11 and waking up at 6 rather than 9-3. I get a few hours of my own productivity.

3 good things

1. Knee more flexible (iced and did heat)

2. got money from retouching and also received new shoes/ new hoodie for winter

3. got a good deal on used pants on ebay for $20

eBay is so much fun to thrift on. Find brand name clothing for like $20 bucks.

I didn’t really feel creative tonight. However, today, I learned how to put different sized pages on the same spread in Indesign so that helps with my job so I’m really happy about that. I think partially why I don’t feel so creative today is because I tried pretty hard, well kind of hard to do well at my job today. However, when I read something, I just don’t quite understand unfortunately. I’ve been here almost a year now so that’s pretty amazing. I think I’m just going to spend the night until about 10 watching indesign videos.

I’m trying to do my best to recover so that I can skate.

“It’s better to have a short life that is full of what you like doing, than a long life spent in a miserable way.”

These were the first words that I heard this morning. In the last 24 hours, a lot has happened and has forced me to think.

3 good things

1. therapy went really well today. Surprisingly, I’m in a good settled state.

2. Knee isn’t so bad today. I’m still a bit mad, but it is what it is. Just need to be safer I guess.

3. Didn’t have to run or bike. Just walked

I’m not sure why my acne decided to come back so strong. For the last few years, it’s been something I’ve never really had to think about. So many signs of age keep coming up. Hair loss, acne, knee injuries, not bouncing back as quick, having to work a job.

I made something that I normally don’t make. It’s very kids photoshopped. The first one is more of the style that I like a lot nowadays. The 2nd two were just for fun. I’m not sure if those two are finished, but I think I’ll come back to them tomorrow. I’m learning more about finishing projects over time rather than finish in one day.

Unfortunately, I got hurt again. I tried to ollie down a long 8 stair which was probably like a 10 stair and I hit my bad knee into the ground. Usually, I have my knee pad, but because I was wearing pants, It hurt when I lifted my leg. I’m sad, disappointed, angry, and frustrated at myself for not putting the knee pad on especially since I brought it with me. I also just ordered volleyball knee pads that just came in right now literally around 9pm.

All the progression that I had in skateboarding from the last 2 months is now gone. I could feel it as fall and winter started to approach, something was changing. It was a crazy moment at the stairs. I was almost about to cry just because everything I had worked for in that moment just was gone. Had I really taken it for granted. Today, as I mentally did my 3 grateful things, I said mobility to myself. But here I am. Injured.

I did 10 minutes of learning about photoshop today. It was a quick run through of the tools that I will continue tomorrow. I also pretty much finished the client image. I said to my sister who is technically the project manager to the client that I would get it done tomorrow night or early Tuesday. My thing is always under promise and over deliver.

I’m unsure how I’m going to rehab again. I hate the fact that I have to start all over again. I wish that I had landed differently, but I also need a new board now too. It’s wild because my face acne just flared up from using a green tea mask my sister sent. I feel like I’m in high school again. Ugly, average, and just not trying hard enough. It’s interesting how I started this all again because of a woman I met who was very into her craft. I don’t blame her because I accept where I am at because of the decisions I’ve made.

I didn’t think I was going to make anything today because of the mood that I was in. However, the 10 minute rule turned into 16 and it turned into me making the above poster.

Today has really made me question all that I’ve done in the last few weeks. I really psyched myself out. If I had my kneepad on, I’m pretty sure I could have done it.

However, 3 good things.

1. My homie, Josh also got a little hurt, and in order to get home, I took an electric citibike and had him skitch me from 11th ave/ 60th street all the way to 7th ave/ 34th street. Took 20 minutes but I’m glad that I’m in shape to be able to do that

2. I tried to ollie the 8 stair.

3. I was able to come home understanding what went wrong, what I need to do, and how I need to heal again. I love skateboarding too much to give it up and I want to at least go hard one more time.

I may not be able to heelflip that set, but I’ll at least try to get better.