3 good things

1. Didn’t have to go into manhattan to interview

2. Got to catch up with a good friend

3. Gonna go drop off some film

4. Getting dinner with friends

There’s a lot of things going on right now. Different gigs, trying to do my own personal projects, falling behind a little bit here and there. I guess it’s a good time to reassess since I’m stressed. I’m stressed for no reason though. Everything that I’m doing is what I want to do right now, but I guess it’s that I feel like I don’t have time to accomplish everything. I guess thats what happens when you live in New York. It’s always on the go, but it’s for what reason?

I think the main thing I need to do is reassess. I was talking with someone I went on a date with and they sent me an article about productivity and the glorification of burnout. It’s not a pretty thing. Burnout that is.

I’m in a headspace right now where I like being productive because I just like the feeling of it. But I don’t know if I’m actually doing it right. But no one really knows if they’re doing it right.

Consistency is important, but I’m figuring out that I need to be a bit more intentional. Showing up for certain things means showing up, but there are certain things you can show up in different ways. So for example, showing up for a job means showing up on time. When it comes to posting on instagram. Who cares? If you don’t have something to show, then don’t show it yet.

I’m really struggling right now to stay awake and write this.

3 good things

1. dropped off my film

2. solved a video project that impressed my boss and co worker

3. got into a pretty solid wheelie, did not land though

4. washed my bedsheets

Wow. I’m really tired. Below is something I’m starting to make for work. I’m realizing I need to post something on Wednesday, but jeezus, I feel burnt out even though I already went on vacation.

The skate zine, Skrrt, that I make, is starting to get a little hard to make. People always want something new which is the hard thing. I’t shard to create something without needing a reference. I don’t know why I’m so tired right now. Maybe lack of sleep, but dang I’m tired.

Haven’t really been watching typography videos lately and I haven’t been reading that much about economic investing. I feel like my life has shifted to just design, photos, and dating. Not a bad thing, it’s just that I’m so unsure about if I’m devoting enough time to actually learning design. I also feel bad for my dog right now.

3 good things

1. Got groceries

2. Got to run with my dog today

3. Finished my design

Jeez, I’m starting to feel overwhelmed again. I just got back from a mini vacation in DC, but jeez, there’s just a lot of things to do which is nice because at least I’m not focusing on being sad or asking existential questions like I would the first time I did this blog. Then again, the first time I did the blog, it was a bit different. I kind of just wrote whatever. I’m still just writing whatever.

Not sure if I need a break. Just a lot of things happening. Glad that today is over. Got work tomorrow so AGH.

3 things I’m grateful for

1. Spending time with my Dad

2. Gemma is taken care of

3. Got to sleep last night

Think about who you’re going to be in 3-5 years. Who are the people you are hanging with? Are they driving you or are they holding you back?