So I almost forgot to post today. Dam, that would have been tragic. Not really because I still designed something, just didn’t post it online.

I got to shoot some photos today of an old friend as he was fixing my bike and I got to shoot some photos of him too. Bad thing is that I shot some film of someone I went on a date with and the film broke inside the camera. V tragic so that kind of sucks.

We’ll see if I can get it developed. It might be past no return, but we’ll see.

It also might be that the camera is broke too. dam.

Not really much to write about today. I know that I’m lacking on personal finance right now. I’ve been thinking of doing the investopedia game, but I still just feel so unprepared.

I think I’m getting used to failure and looking to it as research. If there’s anything my sociology degree has given me is to learn how to improve upon past methods. I think that’s a good thing so that I can keep trying to learn. The only problem is that I keep getting bored with doing things over and over and over again.

It’s hard when all I want to do is just try a bunch of different things.

Anywho. Time to sleep. No work tomorrow so I’m trying to see if I can actually go skate. I haven’t skated for myself in the longest time.

I feel like I’ve been shifting a lot lately. Shifting meaning that I’m not doing what I was doing last year. Around this time last year, I was realizing that I wanted to get into the skateboard industry. Now that I’m at the front door and have been let inside, there are a bunch of rooms that I can go into (read as brands), but I need to get an invitation/ my network inside the house needs to be a lot better. All I wanted to do last year was just skateboard. Now when I go skate, I just end up doing the filming. It’s not a bad thing since I’m making zines and trying to shoot photos all the time, but I just miss being able to skate.

I know that at the beginning of this typography blog, there was going to have to be some sacrifices and that sacrifice was mainly going to be running and skateboarding. As I sat there today watching all these kids throw themselves down a 5 stair, at no point of time did I feel like I wanted huck myself down the set. It was also cold and it was night time and I’m not a fan of that combination duo. However, I still want to skate, but I just don’t want to feel that I always have to film. I want to be able to skate to just skate.

It’s an interesting development right now. I’m not really bugging on it too badly, but I think it’s also because I’m tired right now. I’ve been in the cold for the last 6 hours. I wish I could have at least jumped down the set once, but the problem is that I have to warm up and if I’m not warm right out the doors of the subway, I don’t even want to try.

Anywho, went on a date yesterday. Fun time, just not exactly the right type. Cool person, but just not that attracted. Dating apps are so interesting. I’m on a different app and I’ve matched several times already and am talking to different people.

It’s strange, I never thought of myself as the guy or the friend who is just always going out with different people or the uncle or cousin that lives in NYC, but I’m slowly becoming that person.

This is interesting to me because I’m thinking about a line that Darren Hardy said when he was trying to find a partner which is, he had to become like the person or have similar traits to the person that he wanted to have as a partner. In that same vein, I feel like I’m doing the same. Not just in love, but also in life. I want to be a successful designer so I’ve changed my habits my forcing myself to make something everyday. I’ve randomly decided to just start dating again so that at least when I’m older, I don’t regret not doing so.

Fake it until you become it. Aim to become what you seek.

Dam, life is fun.

So I spent the majority of this day just working on a resume. Let’s just say, I don’t really know what’s going to happen. I do all this work, turn it in, and I don’t get an email. It’s interesting. I don’t want to read too much into this, but I just hope that my work pays off in the end (whenever the end is).

It’s funny though, I submitted to a listing just for giggles and it’s through a temp agency and they called me back to submit me. Interesting how this all works out. It would be for a fashion company. I am trying to move towards fashion so we’ll see what happens…I guess…Idk haha

I am a skateboarder so I’m not sure what’s going on, but it would be fun to do fashion. Ultimate goal is to work for Adidas, Vans or Nike. Specifically Vans since it’s more of a skate company to me than those other ones.

I’m not really feeling like writing right now. I’m a little tired so nap time :D

I was making dinner today and I was thinking about how much has happened in the last couple of weeks with this new habit of making something every single day and being a bit more focused on investing. It’s not exactly the investing that I want to be doing which is speculative investing, it’s more of the focus of education on myself right now. I was thinking about how 2 years ago I was really sad, heartbroken, and was about to start my final semester in college. I look at myself now and I compare myself and I don’t really recognize that person 2 years ago. It kind of helps that I have long hair and that I live in a different city, but jeez, I’m really happy with how different I am from 2 years ago. However, I say this every day, it’s hard to stay motivated. It’s almost as if I need someone to say something to me/ watch a motivational video to keep me going. I almost didn’t want to design, but fortunately, I just force myself to do so.

I bring up my past right now because I’ve gone on several dates within the last few weeks. 2 years ago, I was just completely heartbroken and was on a path to learn to love and appreciate myself. I think I’m finally at that stage and I don’t get really bogged down on getting rejected not because I don’t want to feel the pain, but because I’m also learning how to date. To put it more clearly, I know that there are plenty of people who do want to date me. Like I said in the past it’s important to learn to fail early and to fail soon so that I can learn to be successful. The point is to keep going, be consistent, and don’t worry about the small things. Mistakes happen. Life’s messy. Just keep going.