Dec 8, 2020 pt 2

Who was I as a child?

Let’s span this time between 5 and 8 years old before my mother passed away.

I liked dogs. I loved climbing up the stairs to get up the stairs at home. I loved sliding down the stairs to get down. I loved jumping from the highest point of the stairs to get down. My dad would always tell me i would break a bone doing so, but i haven’t so far. I loved climbing on the walls like spider man. I loved spider man. I loved the movie space jams. I loved watching TV. Shows like Rollie Pollie Olie, Bear in the Big Blue House, Out of the Box, PB & J Otter, Zoboomafoo. I loved dogs. I really liked bucket hats. Dressing cool was important to me. I think I liked the Backstreet Boys. I didn’t eat a lot. I drank a lot of soda. I had a lot of cavities. I was always cartwheeling. Also, I think I fought a lot? I cried a lot. I had a lot of emotions.

I liked watching the show Rocket Power. Cartoons were the main thing that I liked doing.

The book I’m reading says that part of growing up is not losing the child in you. The creativity in you. The kid in you.

The book talks about how you can become who you wanted to be when you were younger. A woman became a famous painter at age 76 and died at 102. In 3 years after she restarted painting, her work was in the MoMa. Her paintings sold at 1.2 million at her death.

I have to think about what I liked so much when I was younger. All I can think about is skateboarding.

Wealth is not money. It’s being able to do what you want with your time and spend your life how you want which will leave you happier and even richer. I do believe that. Don’t waste your life making someone else’s dream come true.

But what is my dream. The only dream I remember having when I was younger was being an engineer. Welp I don’t like math so that’s a wrap.

But what are some things that I liked about myself when I was younger. High energy. Emotional ( I cried a lot or was able to speak my feelings) I stopped being able to be mad as soon as my my died. Talkative. It was easy to make friends. How do I want to be? I want to be more like my younger self.

What’s interesting is that 3rd grade and 4th grade me really liked baggy clothes. I’m wearing baggy clothes. I’m still skating. I liked drawing a lot. I liked cartoons a lot. Maybe I should start drawing again? Drawing is what got me into design.

I liked rap and r&b. I still do and even more so now. I didn’t care so much about what I ate, but I was also very athletic. I still am.

I’m still very much the same person that I was as a child. A bit more emotionally aware and can handle my own, but what am I trying to hold onto and tap into?

As a child I really loved singing too. But I barely sing anymore now. It’s been so long.

maybe this is me rethinking new york? Nah, I think it’s just me thinking about what do I need to do next.

I think I just liked cartoons, playing with my friends, eating sugar, singing, and there was a lot of church.

But besides all that, yes, cartoons, sports, sweet tooth, singing, and anything with fun. Next job I want, I want it to be a lot of fun.