November 30th
3 good things
Cried during therapy
Finished a project assigned to me within 2 hours. Finalized in 30 minutes.
Ran 2 miles today
My biggest fears right now.
Dad saying that he will abandon me. But the source of that is the fear of losing him, the surviving parent.
I really wanted to go home this year. I broke down because I’m so tired of being in NYC.
I’m glad I have my therapist. I’ve broken down so many times this past year and I’m grateful for allowing myself to feel this.
I’m doing the hard work that needs to be done. Realizing that I’m a different man from my Dad. That I’m in adulthood and that I’m able to have these conversations of disagreement with my Dad because I can handle it as shown by surviving in a pandemic.
Tomorrow, I start my creative pursuits again.